I’ve been trying to ignore the best parts of you
But I’m still hoping that I’ll be with you somehow
I’m sorry but I can’t forget about the way I feel
Every time you’re here.
What would it take for me to be with you
I swear I’d rip my heart out if you said you’d be impressed, please be impressed

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Today was rather weird. Or more of people seeing me as being emotionless. Wow, I’m troubled.

And amazingly I managed to stay awake the whole school day even how boring it gets.

Ms Tia was asking me if I’m okay or not because I react to her question with a poker face. It’s like a whole 10 secs on me but it felt super long. Omg am I that obvious?

Then during Social Studies, we got a total lecture from Mrs Tan. It’s once in a while kind of talk. This also because we did badly for our SS paper which for every 1 girl fail, 4 boys fail. Thats the statistics in our class. You do the maths. And during the whole lecture, she mostly stared at me. OMG THATS FREAKING SCARY!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I literally screamed out loud in my heart while doing that. And when we collected our papers. She gave the others with low marks much talking about their mistakes. My paper was super super CLEANER than theirs! It’s like marks only and no point out where my mistakes were. Also no conclusion statement at the back of my answer paper. And she’s like asking me if I’m okay also. OMG THIS IS FREAKING ME OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!! AM I FCUKING TROUBLED TO PEOPLE!!!!! I wanna cry but cannnot. Laughter hides my pain. Sigh. That’s why I laugh randomly recently.

Okay, aside from that weird concerns, A Maths paper was pretty easy. Sacrificed recess to study a bit more. And I thought the last question was improper and did wrongly. But still get method mark! Should be around 26/30 I think!

I need hugs and a shoulder to cry on…